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7:45 a.m. - 2006-03-19 i got home, rather drunk. i set down my phone, cigarettes, lighter, water bottle and medication beside me on my bed. i changed my msn name to something strange that i dont even understand. it was "you think it still worked but its really only 51 am". 92 hours. i woke up for the first time since wednesday at 6am. if i didnt sleep i would have taken more, then i wouldnt be so hungry or i wouldnt be shaking so badly. i havent eaten in 122 hours. when i say that- im pretty straight up about it. the lights in my room are on. my bed room door is open. im in my clothes under the covers. my wallet is still in my back pocket. i didnt even stand a fucking chance. i should probably go play with my penis while i still can. before i take the meds again at least. |