7:06 p.m. - 2007-10-12
Im glad everyone gave up on Diaryland. I can just write what ever the fuck I want and no one will read it anymore.
Claire is such a bad infulence. I love hanging out with her though and I never really get to- besides at the bars n shit. So when she said "What are you doing tonight" And I said "Im going to Girl Talk" And she said "I want to do coke and watch a movie with you" -I gave my ticket away -Picked Claire up -Decided to call in sick to work -Accedently picked up more coke than we needed -Watched 2 episodes of The Office and did alot of the coke we bought -Did more coke and watched a movie -Drove Claire home -Decided I would just sleep for 2 hours and then go to work -Couldnt sleep untill a few minutes before I planned on leaving for work -Woke up from a call from work -Did a line to wake me up -Went to work and did 3/4s of the coke I had left (throughout the course of the day) -Came home and didnt want to be up all night again, cause I work tomorrow morning When I do coke; I do some, then I wait a little bit, usually half an hour- 45 minutes, then I do some more. I repeat that untill I run out of coke. I have enough self control not to buy more when I run out, but when Im on it, I just want more and more of it in my nose. I didnt want to be up all night or even do it for a bit of the night. So about an hour ago, I got the last 1/4 of it set up. 3 very large lines. Way bigger than that which someone would do regularly. They were about a half gram each. My whole face was numb, but the inside of my nose obviously burned all day. ***SIDE NOTE*** [When you snort back some cocaine, you do the amount you planned on- in one deep nasal inhale. Its not easy snorting back half a gram of some powder in one nose breath.] I did one of the lines and took a breath and did half of the next line. I didnt know what to do with myself, running around my house trying to figure out what I was going to do. I talked to nick for a bit and then watched some Deal or No Deal, which is a pretty intense show normal- not to mention when youre insane with cocaine. ***SIDE NOTE*** [I dont smoke anymore, unless Im on drugs. Its been about a month, with the exceptions of being on Acid last weekend, and The coke binge last night and today.] I didnt have any cigarettes and I really didnt care about it, but going to buy some; was something I could go do. My nose started dripping badly. Ever leave a band-aid on for a long time and when you take it off; there is a brownish stain on the gauze? Not blood, but more of a skin-juice. That is what drips out of your nose when youre doing a lot of cocaine. The insides of your nostrils start to deteriorate. Being eaten by the drugs. I whipped my nose and drove to Shell. Bought the Cigarettes. Had Half of one before I got back to my house. Did the rest of the coke. I filled with panic moments later when I realized I didnt want to go out, but there is nothing for me to do at home. So I came on here to write about it, cause there is no one to talk to, which is one of the only things you want to do while on coke.
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