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1:37 a.m. - 2005-05-27 my hair is alright. thanks shylah. have a good trip. no matter what we are- you know how i feel. "primary boyfriend" or not, i still consider myself your boyfriend and i care so much for you. i hope you never have to feel like you are sorry about that again. it really is weird- how people "just start to care" but youre impossible not to care about. i said "be mine?" and you said you'd love to, but i understand why you cant right now. you dont have to be sorry about it. you just have to know how much i care- the rest is up to you. brb i need water ahhh so, as i was saying- i think im going to puke. i wont lie, i really wish that he didnt call to say sorry. i wish that when you said "i'd love to" you really ment "id love to- more than id love being joels again" i wish i went drunk tonight so that i could have seen you- legit (not sneaking around) and i could have been holding you. just being with you- so you wouldnt have anwsered your phone... and you would still love being mine. i hope i hear your voice soon- and i hope i never hear you sad again. |